Definitely making progress

I have a new mantra.

Don't think I'm an anorexic.

"I don't want any food. I don't want any food." It seems to work well on snacking. Also, I think I'd have to lose about 80 pounds before anyone was concerned about anorexia. My downfall is usually eating too much in one sitting: pizza, pasta, HuHot, whathaveyous. But this summer I think my downfall has been snacking. Mostly out of boredom.

I DO NOT WANT ANY FOOD.

Really. Maybe crackers, but no food.

I guess it didn't help that I watched "Modern Marvels: Chocolate Factories" while I was on the elliptical today.

On being sweaty gym mouse

After a good hour or so of gym-mousyness early this afternoon (having decided that early afternoon is the quietest time of day to visit AF during the week) I am feeling pretty darn good about my progress.

I have decided to try the weighing myself once a week idea--- mostly because it will give me something to look forward to each week haha. :) I weighed a billion this morning, that is all I will say.

Also, I watched Spongebob today at the gym. I am very confused about whether or not I can watch spongebob on a regular basis or if the TV guide just doesn't know what it's talking about. Also, all of the doors for the tanning rooms were locked today and the lady was vacuuming and so I didn't feel like I could say "HELLO PLEASE! I WOULD LIKE TO TAN!"

Furthermore, I'm starting to see how people can spend hours on end in the gym. I get the feeling I'll get there within a week or so. Half an hour here, half an hour there-- I could pretty much do that all day. And I have very little else to do.

I have been struggling with this "relaxation" concept. I'm really good at slacking, time-wasting, surfing the internet (which is a complex combination of the two), sleeping too much, eating too much and generally being slothful. However, truly restful relaxing time is not really in my reporitoire. Tanning has been helping, because you can't help but chill out when you're getting baked to a delicious brown :)

Also the people who run are apartment are a bunch of pirates and wenches, and not in the cool, "arr matey, getcher booty" sort of way.
This is the general vibe I get from them:
"Your air conditioning doesn't work and we couldn't possibly care any less than we do, no matter how many times you politely call and ask us to fix it. As a matter of fact, the amount that we care falls somewhere between 'I don't give a sh$#,' and straight up 'F@#% off.' So it is in your best interests just to stop pretending you MIGHT live in a comfortable situation sometime this summer and grow bigger ears in an effort to cool the blood in your body like dessert rabbits do."

So, if anything, I might sweat off a few pounds.

Summer plans

This morning I got up and hung out for awhile. I had planned my fitness this morning with precision. I would arrive at the gym at 10:00-- the same time Spongebob starts :)

Only to find that my gym does not carry Nickelodeon. I suppose this makes sense. Maybe it costs a little more to have kids' channels and the gym really doesn't have a need to do that. Except for ME who wanted to watch spongebob and ended up watching Say Yes to the Dress and Will & Grace instead which of course isn't awful, but when I'm ready to watch some spongebob anything else is a letdown.

Even so, I put in a good 45 minutes, tanned (yaaay!) and we're heading out to go swimming pretty quick here. So today will be a good second day on my route to there being less of me.

Eating is still a ridiculous struggle. I'm getting there, working on it. <3

Riding the Wagon

It is indeed a good wagon. I did a good half hour on an elliptical! :) Since I'm not doing much else with my life I'm going to become a gym-rat (mouse... hammy... gerbil...?). Tomorrow I will go back and the next day and the next day!

I feel so much better.

Special thanks to my Dad who sent me some awesome motivational emails and helped me get back on track. He has been a great role-model for my fitness-journey; he has lost a LOT of weight and I am very very proud of him. I love you dad! <3

Thanks for reading everyone!

Struggling

Hi guys.

I am really struggling to get back on the "wagon." Not having a job and having so much free time is weird for me (I continue to search for a temp position-- but nothing has panned out.) Without structure in my life I have no IDEA what I should be doing. That's not entirely true-- I know what I should be doing, but there's so much time it's difficult to convince myself that NOW is the time to do those things. I'm a very schedule-oriented person, which is why I did so well as an undergrad and why I'll do very well as a graduate student. This floating summer thing? Well, I'm not sure how awesome I'm going to be at it. This week has been a little better. I have at least started a reading log and am doing reading related to my new career path. I'm catching up on psychology and familiarizing myself with therapy. I know that once I start I'll be able to really kick butt this summer.

193 flat this morning. Which isn't GREAT but I'm not heartbroken either. Thinking about the way I've been managing my food, I'm very surprised it isn't more.

I'm ready to do this, I just have to go do it.

What's that saying? A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step? I really have to start walking. For cereal.

Sorry.

Hi there. I'm definitely back now-- today I am on a mission to find a new workout home. We are fully moved in to our new place and I am ready to go! I am still weighing in at around 190-- so unfortunately I didn't lose my 5 pounds for May, but I did graduate and move, so that's pretty exciting :)

So, today I thought I would sign up at Anytime Fitness-- until I went straight up to the door and saw their hours:

Mon-Thurs: 7AM-7PM
Fri: 7AM-6PM
Sat & Sun: By appointment only.

I'm sorry, what? Why would you name your gym "ANYTIME fitness" and not make it available on weekends? Whatever. Their face.

I think I'll go join planet fitness later today :)