Struggling

Hi guys.

I am really struggling to get back on the "wagon." Not having a job and having so much free time is weird for me (I continue to search for a temp position-- but nothing has panned out.) Without structure in my life I have no IDEA what I should be doing. That's not entirely true-- I know what I should be doing, but there's so much time it's difficult to convince myself that NOW is the time to do those things. I'm a very schedule-oriented person, which is why I did so well as an undergrad and why I'll do very well as a graduate student. This floating summer thing? Well, I'm not sure how awesome I'm going to be at it. This week has been a little better. I have at least started a reading log and am doing reading related to my new career path. I'm catching up on psychology and familiarizing myself with therapy. I know that once I start I'll be able to really kick butt this summer.

193 flat this morning. Which isn't GREAT but I'm not heartbroken either. Thinking about the way I've been managing my food, I'm very surprised it isn't more.

I'm ready to do this, I just have to go do it.

What's that saying? A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step? I really have to start walking. For cereal.