So this is try 53

Last Tuesday I started the Healthy U program at my school. This will be incredibly beneficial because now I'm in a group and I've paid money for

~A personal trainer twice a week

~Nutrition consultations

~Group therapy for my inevitable BED/CED

It is a little helpful now that I'm in a helping profession and spend some time with a DSM to note that there was a reason I struggled so much with food last spring-- I fit the criteria for both Binge Eating Disorder and Compulsive Eating Disorder.

Last week before the program I went to the doctor and got weighed and had my blood tested. I'm at 220 pounds and I am pre-diabetic. O.O

So part of the program is to keep a food journal of everything you eat. I've been doing this for 5 days now-- the results are shocking. The first day I do okay at about 1,700 calories, but then I go on a trip to the cities for a seminar and all hell breaks loose. The next three days are 2,336; 5,180; 3293. That is a LOT of calories. That's basically out of control. And if you had asked me how much I ate those days before I counted it all up-- I would have said I was pretty good. Who knew the breakfast I was having at the hotel was 910 calories?!

So I'm not making any promises about coming back to my blog (I've been neglectful, I'm sorry) but I'll probably update at least once a week to say how this is all going and at least whether I can get my eating under control. I've said it before that exercising is rarely the hard part.

Thanks guys <3