The Goal

It doesn't matter how it happened, but here I am. I weigh 205.5 lbs as of this morning according to my scale.

I've been working on a few different problems such as emotional eating and self-image issues. Each day, I will try to post what I've done to try to get healthier and the challenges I'm having. 55 pounds (rather, 55.5 pounds) is my goal.

• DDR for 30min (this is always hard work!)
• Started tracking my eating habits on CalorieCounter.com
• Bought some peppermints to curb emotional eating
• Purchased a book from the 80's called "The Food Fix" It's orange. :)

Today was a good day for motivation. I'm at the very beginning of my process, so the only stuggles I'm having are identifying when I'm actually hungry and when I'm upset/bored/lonely/happy/restless and deciding to do something that isn't eating. Ha, maybe I'll come on here and talk about how much I want to make cupcakes and nom a whole bunch of them. (Actually, I don't usualy eat so much of what I actually bake-- I probably just eat like 10 spoonfuls of batter and pretend it doesn't count-- one thing I need to stay aware of).

The other issue I imagine I'll have to fight with soon is my feelings about going to the wellness center-- I've told a few people I feel like people at gyms are judging me-- It's paranoid and crazy, but I always feel bad being there with all of those skinny, fit people. It'd be nice if my workout clothes still fit, too.