.5? Seriously?

Isn't it amazing how quickly I can put on weight and how slowly it comes off!? This morning I weighed in at 202.5.

But, it's less than yesterday. It's progress, even though it's backtracking progress. J suggested to T yesterday that I see a nutritionist. This is would probably be a good plan if I didn't know that nutritionists charge up the wazoo and I definitely don't have the money for it right now (Thanks, Choir Tour!). I was writing my dad last night that the problem I'm having with eating healthy isn't the emotional overeating problem I started out with. I dropped that almost immediately.

Now my problem is that I'm terrified of food. I don't know what food to eat. All of the food seems to have too much of something, too much sodium, too much fat, too many carbs, too much sugar or scary ingredients that I KNOW my body won't process properly. So in the end, I eat whole wheat toast with organic peanut butter (ingredients: peanuts, salt), scrambled eggs, oatmeal, bananas, home-made soup when I have time to make it, brown rice and black beans when I have time for those and various fiber-one bars. It's kind of like I'm stuck in perpetual breakfast.

Like I told my dad, an hour or an hour and a half at the gym isn't my favorite thing in the world, but it's easy and I KNOW it's good for me.

My diet before consisted of a lot of pasta (and I mean A LOT), a lot of tortillas, chicken nuggets, a lot of various kinds of pizza and other things that I just don't think will help me in this process. I found out the other day that Applebees' boneless hot buffalo wings with bleu cheese weigh in at 1750-some calories. No wonder I gained so much weight! I used to eat a basket of those with fries AND beer. Add that to my already crappy eating habits and you have a recipe for disaster.

So, in short, I've established that what I was doing before was unhealthy. So I stopped doing it. Now I need to figure out how to eat healthy on my college-student time-crunch and college-student budget.