Boo

Most mornings, I am a little apprehensive about stepping on the scale. Getting healthy is very important to me and I spend a LOT of time worrying about it. So, each morning at 8am, I am up for excitement or disappointment.

I don't even want to write what the scale told me this morning. It's just frustrating. I'm eating well and I'm doing an hour of cardio every single day and still, the scale told me 203 this morning. I haven't been at 203 since the 24th of February.

What's worse is I don't know whether I need to eat less or more! Am I eating too few calories and my body is freaking out? Am I STILL overeating?! I have no idea. Do I need to spend MORE time at the gym? Have I been pushing myself too hard? Am I doomed to be a 200 pound woman for the rest of my life?!

GAH it's just so frustrating. Like nothing I do actually counts or works. :( I thought I was getting close to the 200 mark on Saturday when I weighed in at 201, and I thought, 'If I can just go down from here, I'll be okay.'

Boo.